The Unspoken

Pada deretan huruf, aku tuliskan cerita. Tentang kita yang menyapa pagi, meramu siang, dan menghimpun malam. Kita yang sebelumnya tak saling kenal, dunia kita tak bersentuhan, lingkaran kita tak beririsan, lantas dipertemukan dalam suatu epidode yang mengakrabkan kita dengan cara istimewa. Pada deretan huruf, aku abadikan kisah. Tentang kau dan aku yang beda, yang tak serupa, tapi berjalan beriringan. Setiap kata merapalkan kejujuran, bahwa setiap beda tak mesti bertentang. Hal yang kadang membuat kita berdebat, nyatanya tetap bisa membuat kita tertawa bersama. Pada deretan huruf, aku rekam setiap momen. Tentang kau yang memahamkanku bahwa dunia bukanlah ruang sempit. Ia tak melulu tentang barat dan timur, atau utara dan selatan. Kau pula yang memahamkanku bahwa kita adalah bagian dari milyaran manusia, yang tertakdir bertemu disini. Pada deretan huruf, aku bekukan kenangan. Tentang kita yang selalu berceloteh bahwa hari seperti dilipat, dan harapan agar ia bisa sedikit melambat....

I'm studying now for TPA and suddenly this feeling just come. This undefined-blues-melancholy-feeling that I hate so much. I think it because that photograph. A single photograph of ours that I set as my desktop wallpaper. And it amazed me that I can still vividly remember the feeling I felt that day when we took that picture. But it makes me sad a little bit. A lot, actually. What is the matter? Perhaps the fact that the class this morning was our last class. That there will be no more the same morning routines in the next day, and the next day, and so on. That everything is slowly changing now. I hate the change of circumstances. Always. I thought I'm used to deal with this thing. But I was wrong. It still feels not good. I'm literally crying now. And I seriously hate it I totally lost my words when I actually have many things to write. Well, I think it's enough to express my feeling at the moment. Hope tomorrow can bring another story of us. Assalamu...

One of the best chapter in my life is my childhood. I like to remember every details of my childhood memories even though I cannot remember it clearly. Imagining the child version of myself sometimes makes me feel amazed by the fact that that little girl has the same body, heart, mind and soul as me. With the innocence, ingenuousness charming, curiosity, honesty, and any other things that you can only find in a child. That little girl was me. Who have change a lot now. That little girl was only worry about what toys she would play tomorrow. Her fears were thunder and heavy rain. Her biggest problem was not have a barbie house. Want to make her smile? Just give her a chocolate bar. Yes, just that simple. That little girl never felt anxious because she thought that adults can protect her. She would ask anything she want to know. She would cry anytime and anywhere she want, even in front of people. She would say what she truly feel, without worrying about what people will think about...

I am writing this with Kiss the Rain and Stay in Memory by Yiruma playing in Youtube. It seriously making me baper . I am trying to remember every single thing we've been through together in the past 3 months. But this is not gonna be a long post that show every details. It's just the voice of  my heart (I don't know how to say curahan hati in English). Sorry if there are some things missed. Our story started at 29th of November 2015. In the day before the opening of our course program, we decided to meet in the gate of ITB for looking for a language center building. There were only 8 of us. Some of us maybe already knew each other because we came from the same region. But mostly, that was our first meet. Oh yes, I already met Cintya the beautiful moon accidentally in Juanda airport before. The next day, we finally met each other. All of us. I remember we sat in the front, introduced our name and the place where we came from. I also remember the Jembernese came togethe...

It's been a week since the last time I wrote something here. I actually have so many things to write, but this time, I just want to share one of the finest day in the last 3 months. It's about my most awaited vacation with my friends. Today, we just had our amazing trip in this town, Bandung. This vacation actually planned since one month ago. But there were some things that made us postponed the plan. And after a fast-speed preparation, we finally done our trip to three famous places in one day. Tangkuban Perahu, Floating Market, and Farm House. It was exciting because these places are the place I haven't been before. This vacation started at 6.30 in the morning (which was an hour late from the plan). Tangkuban Perahu was the first destination. We had our breakfast there, on the way from parking lot to Tangkuban Perahu. Then, we went to Floating Market, prayed   dhuhur , then we enjoyed the lake by boat. It was extremely fun! It was actually not about enjoyi...