Gloomy Wednesday Night

I'm studying now for TPA and suddenly this feeling just come. This undefined-blues-melancholy-feeling that I hate so much. I think it because that photograph. A single photograph of ours that I set as my desktop wallpaper. And it amazed me that I can still vividly remember the feeling I felt that day when we took that picture. But it makes me sad a little bit. A lot, actually.

What is the matter?
Perhaps the fact that the class this morning was our last class.
That there will be no more the same morning routines in the next day, and the next day, and so on.
That everything is slowly changing now.

I hate the change of circumstances. Always.
I thought I'm used to deal with this thing.
But I was wrong.
It still feels not good. I'm literally crying now. And I seriously hate it

I totally lost my words when I actually have many things to write. Well, I think it's enough to express my feeling at the moment. Hope tomorrow can bring another story of us.

Assalamu'alaykum...
Good night.

-Bandung, late night, (almost) end of February-

Komentar

Unknown mengatakan…

Selalu Ada awal Dan akhir.I don't want to say good bye, but see you again guys #nangis😭😭😭

25 Februari 2016 pukul 04.53

melda taspika mengatakan…

Time flees so fast that we don't belive it,,,,

25 Februari 2016 pukul 05.08

Postingan populer dari blog ini

Glimpse of Memorable Memories

I am writing this with Kiss the Rain and Stay in Memory by Yiruma playing in Youtube. It seriously making me baper . I am trying to remember every single thing we've been through together in the past 3 months. But this is not gonna be a long post that show every details. It's just the voice of my heart (I don't know how to say curahan hati in English). Sorry if there are some things missed. Our story started at 29th of November 2015. In the day before the opening of our course program, we decided to meet in the gate of ITB for looking for a language center building. There were only 8 of us. Some of us maybe already knew each other because we came from the same region. But mostly, that was our first meet. Oh yes, I already met Cintya the beautiful moon accidentally in Juanda airport before. The next day, we finally met each other. All of us. I remember we sat in the front, introduced our name and the place where we came from. I also remember the Jembernese came togethe...

Baca selengkapnya

Ramadhan

Walaupun masih banyak sekali kekurangan, Ramadhan tahun ini ternyata merupakan salah satu Ramadhan terbaik yang bisa saya jalani. Anak yang sudah lebih besar dan mandiri, jarak tempat tinggal dan kantor yang hanya 5 langkah, dan jam kerja yang lebih fleksibel, mungkin adalah beberapa hal yang membuat Ramadhan kali ini terasa lebih khidmat. Ramadhan-ramadhan sebelumnya sebagai ibu hamil, menyusui, ibu dengan bayi menuju toddler, jam kerja yang masih padat, membuat saya kewalahan dalam mengatur ibadah. Puasa jelas banyak yang ketinggalan. Sholat sunnah sebisanya saja, yang penting sholat wajib tidak ketinggalan. Sholat tarawih dan Qur'an? Selalu diusahakan sebisanya. Duo ibadah primadona di bulan Ramadhan ini harus diikhlaskan karena masih sering ketempelan bocil. Meskipun kadang merasa sedih karena Ramadhan selalu menjadi waktu istimewa untuk umat Muslim, nyatanya saya hanya bisa melaluinya dengan ibadah 'alakadarnya'. Lalu saya bertemu dengan sebuah nasihat dari ukhti fill...

Baca selengkapnya

After They Left

I used to like to be alone. I can do anything I want without worrying about others. I always enjoy my me-time. I like to go to anywhere with myself because going with others will make me be depending on them. I liked to explore new places with myself. Yes, my self is enough for my company. I enjoyed being with my own. I liked to stay at my room for hours (with bunch of snacks, good movies, good dramas, good books). I didn't need any internet connection, I never touched my phone, and the door and window were always closed. Yes, I really enjoyed that. Sometimes, I went to the public space just with my own. Looking at the people, taking picture, doing silly things, alone. Sometimes I just went around the city by motorcycle with no direction. Alone. Sometimes I spent hours in bookstore (Being surrounded by books is my mood booster). Alone. No, I'm not an introvert. Ask my close friends or family, they know me really well. I just feel comfortable with my own company. I have m...

Baca selengkapnya

The Unspoken

Cari Blog Ini