The Unspoken

I noticed everything. I just acted like I didn't. So, why? I don't even try to understand why, but it comes to a nonsense conclusion: I think it was because sort of events I experienced before. Things I learned from the past, when I let my heart trapped into something I'm not supposed to feel. Things that was going beyond control because of my inability to handle my own feeling. Things that I had never experienced before. The time when I let myself drowned into my own expectations. The time when I started to feel uncomfortable. The time when I felt like It was too late. Let me tell you how it felt like. It was like when you want something but you know that in the end, it will either be great or hurts you. You know that the probability to hurt you is bigger than another option yet you just cannot get yourself out from that feeling because getting out will hurts you even more. You know that it is just a dangerous and manipulative thing that you're really attac...

1. I like hanging out with people. But when I spend too much time hanging around there and there, I will miss my room so much. I need at least a whole day to stay at my room, to refill my mind on my own space. 2. But eventho I like being alone at my room after I'm done with humans, I don't like to be alone for a long time. When I am just with myself, my feeling and thingking will go beyond the limit. Haha. And it makes my mood unstable. I hate the feeling of not-really-sure-about-this-feeling-but-I-just-feel-wrong. So I need someone to talk to. Or even just a chit chat on whatsapp. I need companion to keep me sane. Being alone is sometimes frustrating. 3. I'm getting tired with social media. I quit facebook, I quit path, I uninstal my instagram (yes I still have an instagram account, the private one), I uninstall twitter, and I plan to uninstal tumblr but I still need a platform to express my mind. I rarely do blogwalking now, and I mute every updates on whatsapp except...