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When Will You Graduate?


I remember that kind of question always repeated from my family about a year ago. I just answered it with a very pretty smile and said, “soon, insyaaAllah.” Every time I talked with my parents at phone, that question always be the main topic of our conversation. I felt oppressed at that time.

They just didn’t know how hard I tried to make the best result. They didn’t know how depressed it was to found data for my research. They didn’t know how many times I build a model to obtain the best one. They didn’t know I was studied a lot until late night to understand the method. They didn’t know I read so many articles until my head spinning around. They didn’t know how exhausted it was to stare at the laptop monitor for hours. They didn’t know how tired it was to type so many pages with full of math equation. They didn’t know I slept for only two hours and woke up to continue reading and typing or make a revision. Paper with symbols, numbers, equations and random graffiti scattered around me.

They didn’t know I stayed for ten hours at campus, discussed with my lecturer, friends, or just get free internet connection. I downloaded bunch of math journal and sent email for some people, or just stayed for hours at campus library. They didn’t know the administration things was so complicated.
They just didn’t know it.

And they don’t need to know. You don’t need to tell them about your difficulty or your trouble. All they want to know is your graduation. Cause for some parents, graduation is the highest accomplishment for your university life. They only want to see you on your graduation gown, when someone’s call your name with the new title behind it. And they will take a picture of you and show it to the people in your hometown and proudly say that their son/daughter is a bachelor now. They just want that. And it’s not too much.

Some people really don’t need to know the process. All they want to see is the result. And it’s a common thing. But remember one thing: the result will not betrays the process, you will get what you give, because what goes around comes around.
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