The Unspoken

What's happiness on your point of view? Bunch of money to buy shoes or clothes? Enough savings to travel abroad? A good job with high salary? Or just having a quality time with the one you love after a very tiring day? Or got your bachelor degree after a very long and difficult research? Everyone's definition about happiness is different, indeed. What's makes you happy is not always going the same way on others. And also what makes others happy is not always make you feel the same if you walk in their shoes. When you see your friends get their master degree, you want it too. When you see your friends get a fine job with high salary, you want it too. When you see your friends travel abroad, you want it too. When you see your friends get married, you want it too. It's normal, as human being, it's normal to desire something. It's normal if you want those kind of things. But unfortunately, happiness is defined by society in environment we are curren...

Tak ada keluh walau terhempas. Karena dalam hati yang merapuh, Tuhan selalu selipkan ikhlas. Mereka kata sabar itu permata, yang membawa bahagia meski hati tergores, seperti hujan yang selalu menjanjikan pelangi setelahnya. Lalu saat ia memilu di pikiran, memaksa jiwa yang luka untuk tersenyum. Mereka kata ikhlas itu mutiara. Yang menyembunyikan air mata dalam senyum. Seperti karang yang tak goyah meski ombak melonjak. Teruntuk kalian yang tak bisa kudefinisikan Selalu kuhantarkan doa, saat terjaga di siang dan malam. Entah ini syukur atas anugerah kelahiran, atau rindu atas kasih yang tak berwujud. Tak pernah ku menyesali takdir apalagi menuntut Tuhan! Karena walau kasihmu tak pernah sampai, tapi cinta Tuhanku tak berkesudahan. Hanya harap yang terurai dalam ratap tanpa suara: Semoga Tuhan tak murka atas khilaf yang sengaja. * terinspirasi dari anak yang terbuang

I turn 22 this year, if age really define maturity, then I should be mature enough these days. And you know, I have graduated from university about five months ago. I have been staying in my hometown for five months. My world and my life seems normal, I help my mother doing homework, gather with my family, travel with cousins, try to earn money by taking a part time job, and so much more. But now somehow I feel bored. I'm doing nothing but sleep, wake up, and sleep again. I feel like I have to do something. This is not the life I want. My life has to get in rhyme. I realize that some of my friends are getting married, some already have a kid, some already got a fine job. And I stuck here. With nothing to do. Then, I have to decide what I'm going to do in the future. I have stayed in my comfort zone for too long. Some of my family suggest me to find a job so that I can earn money, some said that I should get a scholarship and take my master degree, and some said I s...

Bertanyalah ia, pada raga yang bergerak, seiring dengan lafadz yang melirih, yang tak pernah alpa sehari semalam, sejak mentari masih belum tampak, hingga ia kembali digantikan bulan yang mengintip malu. Bertanyalah ia, pada hati yang tak kunjung merasa tentram, saat lafadz tak lebih dari sekedar hafalan, saat tasbih, tahmid dan takbir tak lebih dari sekedar ejaan di lidah. Bertanyalah ia pada pikiran yang tak kunjung merasa khusyuk, saat ruku yang selalu bergegas, saat sujud yang selalu bersegera, bahkan dzikir yang tak ingin berlama. Seolah terkejar detik yang berdetak teratur, seolah keberadaan waktu seperti berbatas. Bertanyalah ia pada hati yang kerontang: adakah ibadahku terniat untuk Tuhanku? - somewhere, midnight-