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Being Responsible For It Is

I turn 22 this year, if age really define maturity, then I should be mature enough these days. And you know, I have graduated from university about five months ago.

I have been staying in my hometown for five months. My world and my life seems normal, I help my mother doing homework, gather with my family, travel with cousins, try to earn money by taking a part time job, and so much more.

But now somehow I feel bored. I'm doing nothing but sleep, wake up, and sleep again. I feel like I have to do something. This is not the life I want. My life has to get in rhyme.

I realize that some of my friends are getting married, some already have a kid, some already got a fine job. And I stuck here. With nothing to do. Then, I have to decide what I'm going to do in the future. I have stayed in my comfort zone for too long. Some of my family suggest me to find a job so that I can earn money, some said that I should get a scholarship and take my master degree, and some said I should start to think about marriage.

I know that I have to leave my home for whatever choice I take. I know that I have to leave my comfort zone because there is no growth in comfort zone. I know that I have to compete with other people out there.

But what makes me worry is: where will my choice leads me? How if I regret it and I cannot go back?

I'm a pessimist person. I always worry about the future. I always worry about the outcomes of something I will do or I have done. Then what about the future plans? What to do? I always think about it. I always wonder about what will happen in ten or twenty years from now, what will I make my future?

Future is mystery and I always wonder about it. But there is one thing for sure, wherever it takes me, it always ends up the way it should be.

Someone once told me: "Live is all about the choices, and future is unpredictable. Just do whatever you want and whatever makes you happy. But, be responsible for it. Don't worry too much about the outcomes or the future. Those are things you have no control of. Just do your best and let God do the rest"

Then I realize something:
Making a decision for your life is not hard, being responsible for it is.
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