Langsung ke konten utama

Some Random Thoughts In The Morning

1. I just woke up from 12-hours sleep and feel uneasy. I remember that I took a bath at 5.30, enjoyed every single drop of hot water, and then put on my comfort pajama, then read a book in my bed. It was maghrib time and I think I was fell asleep. I woke up at 6 in the morning.

2. I  am on my period now. And perhaps it caused some emotional problem. I felt not fine yesterday. I cried a little bit at my room.

3. Crying is the way I reduced my indescribable sad-feeling. Because I cannot share my feeling to others. And I actually do not like anyone to see me cry. Not because I am shy, I just feel uncomfortable for that.

4. My friends keep telling me that I am not a mature person. But I am 22 now, and I will turn 23 on May. I think I am mature enough to get married and have a child.

5. Sometimes I act childish in front of the people. It comes out naturally because I feel comfort with my surrounding.

6. I do not know why 'English structure' is so difficult (for me).

7. I got B- on my writing task. I got A- at the previous one. It was bad but I keep write in English for this blog. Even though I know my grammar is soooo bad. (And I know no one read this blog)

8. Like I said before, I felt something-indescribable-like-sad-or-melancholic feeling lately. And gathering with friends is one of the medicine. Being together with them is always make me feel happy and alright. But unluckily, our living allowance have not been sent yet. So we decide to stay at home this weekend.

9. Another medicine is going to a bookstore. But I am afraid if I cannot help my desire to buy a book. I have enough saving actually, but it just for emergency need.

10.  My parent is unwell. They are not in their best health. Nothing can break my heart more.

11. We have some financial problem. My dad has to pay almost 1 million rupiah in the hospital. And I also need to do general check up of my lung and my nose. But my insurance have not been payed so it cannot cover the cost.

12. I lost my appetite to eat (again). I feel sorry to my body for not giving it enough nutrition. I only ate half portion of gruel in the last 2 days. But this is a common thing. It will getting normal soon.

13. I hate my inability to speak properly in front of people.

14. We will have progress test this Thursday. And I think I already know what was wrong in the last test. I hope I can do it much better this time.

15. I think I need a new glasses. I cannot see clearly even though I already put my glasses on.

16. I love mathematics but I am not good at it. I solve some ugly equations whenever I feel bored. And I love the feeling when I get a simple solution for the complicated equation.

17. Bandung is getting warmer. It is not like the first time I came here. But my room is still cold. There are only two warm things in my room, the water and the blanket.

18. The last time I watched television is more than a month ago. So if you want to talk about the latest news, or the hot issues currently, do not talk to me. I only watch some videos on Youtube. I only watch some cute-babies videos or funny videos. And yes, I like to watch an American vs British accent videos too.

19. I have to open my TOEFL materials now. Progress test is only 5 days more! Wish me luck.
Label:

Komentar

Posting Komentar

Postingan populer dari blog ini

Glimpse of Memorable Memories

I am writing this with Kiss the Rain and Stay in Memory by Yiruma playing in Youtube. It seriously making me baper . I am trying to remember every single thing we've been through together in the past 3 months. But this is not gonna be a long post that show every details. It's just the voice of  my heart (I don't know how to say curahan hati in English). Sorry if there are some things missed. Our story started at 29th of November 2015. In the day before the opening of our course program, we decided to meet in the gate of ITB for looking for a language center building. There were only 8 of us. Some of us maybe already knew each other because we came from the same region. But mostly, that was our first meet. Oh yes, I already met Cintya the beautiful moon accidentally in Juanda airport before. The next day, we finally met each other. All of us. I remember we sat in the front, introduced our name and the place where we came from. I also remember the Jembernese came togethe...
9 komentar
Baca selengkapnya

Perempuan, jodoh dan S2.

Kemarin saya dan Mama saya ngobrol santai di meja makan. Tiba-tiba bahasannya menyerempet ke arah jodoh. Sebenarnya saya selalu menghindari topik macam begini dengan keluarga saya. " Kamu kalau udah umur 25 belum nikah, udah susah cari jodoh nanti. S2 lagi" Tante saya juga pernah bilang : "Kamu nggak mau sama si X? Dia S2 juga loh" Wkwk xD Ada yang perlu saya luruskan disini: Saya tidak pernah menganggap kuliah sebagai sarana mencari ijazah lalu pamer gelar dan lantas pilih-pilih teman apalagi jodoh. Allah tidak menilai orang dari ijazah, lantas saya siapa mau pilih suami dari strata pendidikan? Wkwk. Alasan saya melanjutkan studi S2 bukan biar uang panai jadi tinggi macam yang di meme itu xD. Bahkan kalau misalnya saya juga menganggap diri saya sebuah barang yang bisa dilabeli dengan harga, saya juga tidak akan melabeli diri saya dengan harga tinggi. Kenapa? Saya yang tau  diri saya dengan semua kekurangannya. Dari segi akademik saya bukan mahasiswa yan...
5 komentar
Baca selengkapnya

Pada Deretan Huruf

Pada deretan huruf, aku tuliskan cerita. Tentang kita yang menyapa pagi, meramu siang, dan menghimpun malam. Kita yang sebelumnya tak saling kenal, dunia kita tak bersentuhan, lingkaran kita tak beririsan, lantas dipertemukan dalam suatu epidode yang mengakrabkan kita dengan cara istimewa. Pada deretan huruf, aku abadikan kisah. Tentang kau dan aku yang beda, yang tak serupa, tapi berjalan beriringan. Setiap kata merapalkan kejujuran, bahwa setiap beda tak mesti bertentang. Hal yang kadang membuat kita berdebat, nyatanya tetap bisa membuat kita tertawa bersama. Pada deretan huruf, aku rekam setiap momen. Tentang kau yang memahamkanku bahwa dunia bukanlah ruang sempit. Ia tak melulu tentang barat dan timur, atau utara dan selatan. Kau pula yang memahamkanku bahwa kita adalah bagian dari milyaran manusia, yang tertakdir bertemu disini. Pada deretan huruf, aku bekukan kenangan. Tentang kita yang selalu berceloteh bahwa hari seperti dilipat, dan harapan agar ia bisa sedikit melambat....
5 komentar
Baca selengkapnya